Stuck

So, I am officially the most boring person on earth. Every day, Mr. SOC goes to work, Mia goes to school and I am left here alone. I have six and a half hours stretching out before me, and the possibilities are endless. There is so much I could get done in that time. But I do none of it. I just sit here, moldering, alone, staring at the computer. All my new year's "aspirations" about spending less time on the computer are shot to hell. There is absolutely nothing happening with work right now, and it makes me fear that I'm going to fail completely. I can't even do the most basic tasks, because the fear stops me from even getting started.

I have so much good in my life. But I feel completely empty right now. I want to write. I want to keep my promise of showing up here, because I know it's not good for me when I go into these periods of dullness and inertia. But I have nothing to say. I don't know why I can't move from this spot but, for the moment, I am stuck.